Sometimes in my brain
I think of random words
Like
Shutthefuckup
When things I don't want to think of
Flashes past my head

Am I weird?

Unhappy things run through the mind constantly
Am I on the way I want my life to be
Am I happy?
Can I do anything about it?
I just want to be happy


But they say only when you stop looking for happiness
Or something you've always been looking for
It comes to you.

Is it true?