Happy 21st our Korean star

Went to a friend's bday party today! 

It was a one of a kind party cuz it was by far it has been one in which the attire has been pretty difficult for most of us- KPOP/Korean style!! Hahaha. 

We had loads of fun and it was pretty stressy when everyone had to perform individually though it was good stress and everyone got to show off their beautiful voices and talent. 

Some even brought their guitar and uke and basses :)

I caught up w B and B; it seems pretty long since we last talked. 

Seeing my friends with their talents especially E shocking us with her secret dancing talent made us all bring new awe and respect for one another :) we're all talented in one way or another and I'm really appreciative of it! 

And seeing X and A putting in so much effort for Jl as loving friends really warms the heart :) 

And some really impromptu pictures I took nearing the end.  

(I took off my korean cap and ponytail towards the end)

Queen of mando, Korean pop. Her voice never fails to amaze :) 

& Of course, this woman with such a mesmerising voice. 

Shane Filan - You And Me

Hung up on this song recently, its tune is really getting to me.

Ps.

recess week is far too short, its ending soon ):

The mean person

I'm probably the mean person that people talk about. The kind whom can shut off from others completely all of a sudden without any reason. The kind that can be completely jovial and outgoing in one moment and be a completely unresponsive and uninterested the next. 

I guess it's something I can't change despite knowing I have to. 

Current mode: "please just give me lots of personal space" 

Autopilot

Feeling really reaallly detached from nearly everyone all of a sudden.
On the last day of school especially.
I felt a compulsive need to not go to school nor see nor talk to anyone from school or even my outside friends.
So I kinda just stayed home.
Perhaps I'm changing again.

It's a weird feeling really.
Again, I dont like myself being like this.
 But my body and mind seems as if it's on autopilot, doing whatever it thinks its right.

You make architecture become, a chore

I'm still the same person. The same person who can't be forced to do something I don't want/don't like. 

This school has killed it all. If there was any passion at all, it has been eradicated until there isn't any speck. 

Work load comes in waves. 

On weekends after a tiring draining week, your body screams for play; or plainly, just rest. Mind and body away from this overwhelming waves of work. 

And when your body fails to comply and rests instead, you feel guilty afterward for just resting. Designing becomes a tiring chore, deadlines everyday, projects Submisson every week. 

Some things are done just because it is graded. Just cause I need to complete it, I do it half heartedly and when the arrows fly, it should have been something expected but still it will hurt. Probably, if I were to do it half heartedly again, I shouldn't even start. 

Architecture, and this particular education becomes a chore. 

Have you, ever put yourselves in our shoes? 

Week 4

Week 4.

The week where all the projects are due. 

Curse mode was 10000 today. 

I hope you'll let us tide over smoothly and not let us lose faith in this place. 

It has become really draining mentally, I even had stomach aches due to the work load, which was something I never really experienced before. 

Deadlines upon deadlines. I wonder if they ever liased with one another about the work they are giving us. 

Still, I'm glad that Tuesday is finally over.

And I had a nice home breakfast of beehoon today! 

And I had raucousIgnasius(one of the few who can understand my lameness and weirdness) and kind Mel to help me out with Vasari ! 

And Shirley beryl and some section 2 people creating chaos to ease our pressure away. Even the sp from poly said that its so much worse compared to poly ): 

still, i pray that after going through all these, we'll all be good. 

And I finished my revit model which is really a miracle thanks to Jo who guided me :) 

Counting my blessings....

331am 

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Clockwork mouse running on batteries

These few days haven't been exactly great so far!
I walked out on my group on Monday and fell out with a friend but I finally made it up with her.
I guess I can never stop discovering more about myself, the walls I have built up against others, the walls I have built up against myself...

Itp had been a healing period and now it's back to real life- the feeling of time pressing down on your back, workload becoming heavier. In short, the feeling as if you're on an escalator but still there are tonnes of people pushing you at the back. Sometimes the days make me feel as if I'm a clockwork mouse, running on batteries with no particular sensation or emotion. Or rather, no time for emotions.

Meeting new people and going to new places are good for healing. But I realise the issues aren't ever solved unless you start by tackling it straight in the bud.

Certain scenarios like this calm me down, amidst the hustle and bustle of this chug-a-chug lifestyle.